Thanks Tumblr, for having such easy features.

NOT. 

Baby boy, go for the fame,

go for the fame…

Oh, no I cannot tell.

Oh, no I cannot tell. 

I’ve watched

myself very closely. There was a time when I couldn’t even see myself, but I think I can now. I have fears about the future, but more about the past I leave behind. I am no where near as directionless as I once was, but I find myself coming to the beginning of each path and only taking a few steps before getting cold feet and scrambling back to the safety of whatever place I am calling home.

I feel that many things are still out of my reach. 

And the biggest problem I have 

is that I continue to perceive 

money as the answer 

to all of life’s

problems. 

But honestly, it’s about more than that. 

I find it difficult for people to take me seriously. 

I’m still seeking that validation from somewhere out there.

And I feel such a wretched sense of empty entitlement…

I feel entitled…but to nothing in particular.

I feel cheated…but of nothing in particular.

I would rather feel like I’ve worked hard for something.

And I know, I know, I am quite sure that things will turn around.

But there’s that fear…

That they won’t

and that I’ll just let the time pass me by.

So I have to promise myself at every moment to never let that happen.

To never stop going after what I want or whatever I think I need.

So this is another reminder

right           here.